And sings my soul, how great Thou art, how great Thou art!
He has called me into a season out of ministry. I am taking a break...maybe for the semester, maybe for the year. This is not an easy thing...there is passion He has imparted in my heart for woman that i cannot ignore, but He whispers to me that for now, He wants to pour into me and restore me. It is good, because I am being radically refined...if there was any part of me that was finding validation in the "titles" and "positions" of leadership, it is being stripped fast. It seems that within the ministry circle, we respect people in direct proportion to their leadership responsibilities. That is a sad thing. I want Him to prune that out of my mindset. Although I know He loves me regardless of WHAT I do....i so often think people only love me based on that, only have respect if I am leading...but I have surrendered that. So be it. I am not here to please others, but Him. He has the authority to restore me from my burnt out status, to heal my chronic sickness, but He will not, until I cease to be busy..."when God gets us alone by affliction, heart break, temptation, disappointment, sickness or by thwarted affection, then He begins to expound." It has taken Him so long to get be "alone." But now, here i am revealed, in the desert, led to be spoken to tenderly by my King. God's responsibility is to provide the burning bush, my responsibility is to turn aside...have i been to caught up in "ministry" to turn aside?
It is ok to stop. It is ok to say, I need help. It is ok to walk with humility and know that we don't have it all together. It is ok to lean on the body.
God whispered to me yesterday in quiet time, "I want you to prosper and be in health. I want you to know Me more intimately. If difficulties come, (which they will), it is by My order and for your benefit."
He wants to make all the world has, (even His blessings), seem bitter compared to Himself. What a gracious lesson to learn, what a great God I know.
The original form of Psalm 23:26 is: "He leads me beside waters of rest."
There I will be, walking through the valley, my hand in His, until i reach the waters of rest...where I will be restored. The same One who led me into the valley, will deliver me from the valley. All out of love, as a father to a son-
..."and sings my soul, how great Thou art..."
on my knees, held by a Savior, Kate
He has called me into a season out of ministry. I am taking a break...maybe for the semester, maybe for the year. This is not an easy thing...there is passion He has imparted in my heart for woman that i cannot ignore, but He whispers to me that for now, He wants to pour into me and restore me. It is good, because I am being radically refined...if there was any part of me that was finding validation in the "titles" and "positions" of leadership, it is being stripped fast. It seems that within the ministry circle, we respect people in direct proportion to their leadership responsibilities. That is a sad thing. I want Him to prune that out of my mindset. Although I know He loves me regardless of WHAT I do....i so often think people only love me based on that, only have respect if I am leading...but I have surrendered that. So be it. I am not here to please others, but Him. He has the authority to restore me from my burnt out status, to heal my chronic sickness, but He will not, until I cease to be busy..."when God gets us alone by affliction, heart break, temptation, disappointment, sickness or by thwarted affection, then He begins to expound." It has taken Him so long to get be "alone." But now, here i am revealed, in the desert, led to be spoken to tenderly by my King. God's responsibility is to provide the burning bush, my responsibility is to turn aside...have i been to caught up in "ministry" to turn aside?
It is ok to stop. It is ok to say, I need help. It is ok to walk with humility and know that we don't have it all together. It is ok to lean on the body.
God whispered to me yesterday in quiet time, "I want you to prosper and be in health. I want you to know Me more intimately. If difficulties come, (which they will), it is by My order and for your benefit."
He wants to make all the world has, (even His blessings), seem bitter compared to Himself. What a gracious lesson to learn, what a great God I know.
The original form of Psalm 23:26 is: "He leads me beside waters of rest."
There I will be, walking through the valley, my hand in His, until i reach the waters of rest...where I will be restored. The same One who led me into the valley, will deliver me from the valley. All out of love, as a father to a son-
..."and sings my soul, how great Thou art..."
on my knees, held by a Savior, Kate
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