"Jesus says that the root of anxiety is lack of faith in our heavenly Father-"
So it's almost 5am and after a long day of classes, studying and work....i still can't sleep. Its not that I'm not tired, because that would be an understatement...it's that I'm anxious. After more than an hour of allowing my mind (actually, feeling helpless to stop my mind), to think of everything possible and then stress about every aspect of everything possible...I decided to pray and read what Piper had to say about it. Just to let you know the extent and primary focus of my pointless anxiety, I'll give you a snapshot of my thoughts:
"...I have to get up at 8 and do math, then go to math...oh man i'll be tired tomorrow...i have classes, work ...can i memorize famous daves menu more during I-S? No...it's lab. Shoot. That means I can't do quiet time until after work...and i certainly can't take a nap so I'll be so tired ...and i have to serve for 6 hours at least tomorrow night...and then i have to come back and study math...i have that huge exam......i wonder if i should take a class during j-term...what class....?"
Sadly, this continues for way too long. Too long being for more than a minute...
SO the point of all this? What God just shared with me in the form of John Piper:
Jesus says that the root of anxiety is lack of faith in our heavenly Father
Now I know, this is not some annoyance ....but a sin. It makes sense doesn't it? But how blind we are when lost in our own thoughts. Anxiety= Unbelief. Lord, help me with my unbelief. Lord, help me trust You are sovereign...God, help me stop allowing these thoughts and combat them with Your promises. Help me trust you with my health...with providing energy....grant me eternal perspective....help me to cast all my fears...for You sustain. You lead my to quiet rivers, you are my shepherd and in You i put my trust. Help me to seek You first. Help me to forget none of Your benefits..You Are Lord. -
Chief of sinners, Your faithless daughter....Kate